These are the clouds of Michelangelo
Muscular with gods and sungold
Shine on your witness
In the refuge of the roads.
-- Joni Mitchell, Refuge of the Roads
These last two weeks were a rollercoaster. I got a little carried away with the political drama. As much as I was energized and inspired by the first week, I was exhausted and repulsed by the sneering, bitter aggression of the second. I know not everyone will agree with me, but you can take it or leave it. Yesterday I had to pull back; I finished a chapter of the market research report on the exciting world of sugar and sweeteners that's currently paying my bills; I made dust covers for my sewing machines (actual skills involved!); I took a long time for yoga; and I contemplated my ultimate Plan B, leaving the country.
I'm a dual citizen of Canada by virtue of being Canadian-born, and I'm always glad to hear from my Canadian readers since I could be your neighbor soon. I haven't spent much time there -- only my first year of life in Edmonton, and part of my 18th year in a tiny apartment on Isabella Street in Toronto, where I learned to drink Grand Marnier from my urbane roommates and had most of my worldly goods stolen by a neighbor whose girlfriend had left him; he thought that gifts of my clothes and jewelry might bring her back. The soundtrack that year was Hejira and Running on Empty and Bonnie Raitt on 8-track tape, and the snowfall set records.
In the airport on the cold February day that I left Toronto, a man approached me to ask if I wanted to go and be a blackjack dealer at the Calgary Stampede. A road not taken, and he was probably asking something else entirely, but the cowgirl archetype has been a part of me ever since. I met a friend of spirit, he drank and womanized. What if.
I bought fabric there that winter and made a Dresden Plate quilt from instructions in McCall's Needlework & Crafts, now very faded and torn:
It makes me think now of Dijanne's incredible Traveller's Blanket, which I've been meaning to mention for some time. Her work is mesmerizing and beautiful, as always, and the concept is mystical and rich -- I love the depth of her research and inspiration. Here is what Dijanne wrote about it:
The blanket is inspired by the idea that the maker is a traveller in the footsteps of Ibn Battuta, one of the great travellers from medieval times in the decade or so preceding Marco Polo - and the fragments of fabric that he sews to the blanket are an aide de memoire of his experiences , but, as he is also a fabric merchant it is his way of memorising cloth to be replicated in the future when he is home - it's a bit of a play on the idea of memory of cloth and memory as a sensation rather than a photographic record.
So my old quilt is a traveler's blanket of a different sort, still an aide de memoire of a strange journey. The I Ching has a hexagram for the traveler, #56, The Wanderer or Sojourning. "You are a stranger in a strange land, whose identity comes from a distant centre," says my translation by Stephen Karcher. But with a peripatetic childhood, my identity -- fractured though it has always been - had to come from within. What does a traveler's blanket look like when the traveler never returns home?